Im lost… or… I don’t know… every day I loose smth, and find nothing… I can loose all positive and good in my life!!! Whats the reason…?.. I don’t know... every day I make mistakes… because of my stupid character… I don’t understand when I make people feel bad…
Yesterday… I had a fight with my close friend… perhaps I don’t want to have only friendship … may be I want more… but Im scared… to loose him.. I think I cant be without our friendship…
Last night I thought that I made smth bad to him… and I couldn’t sleep at night…
Every day I had talks with him, but yesterday I said “that’s all.. I wouldn’t write to you!” and after that I was like in the Hell!!! I couldn’t thinking about anything than he … I was ashamed .. I wanted to say “sorry”.. but I couldn’t…
And that night I was sitting in the dark and thinking about this situation…im stupid… and fool… I always do smth wrong!!! ALWAYS!!! Im sick and tired of myself!!! Im selfish… I should stop thinking only about me… im wrong…. Sorry….